At least one morning a week I wake up in a full panic attack, grasping at anything I can get my hands on to pull me back to reality. The nightmares that shake me to my core usually revolve around my past, reliving moments that I have chosen to forget or have buried deep in the folds of my innermost being, only to be uncloaked with my dearest of friends.
Read MoreI was 19 years young at the time and I was sure that I had seen, experienced, or at least mentally conquered everything this side of heaven. No mind that I had yet to be married, had no children, and still lived in the same county I was born in. As my sister tells it, I used to walk around saying, “I’m Melissa the great!” Can you even imagine?! Bless my heart; Given the chance, I would go back a few decades and take my younger self into the alley to teach her a lesson on humility!
Read MoreAnd yet, this year is a STRUGGLE! The holidays have always been tough for me so I put on a happy face and run to the finish line. But not this time, I can’t make myself do it. I refuse to put on a fake smile and go through the motions just praying for the season to end. Instead of stuffing down all of the sadness and unrest, I am choosing to sit in the muck and sort it out.
Read MoreAt this time each year we see an influx of gratitude challenges pop up in our media feed. I usually do not partake because I think we should be grateful every day. But this year is a different story.
Read MorePicture this: There I was trying to live my best life and keep my crazy tucked in when suddenly I was blind-sided by anger and rage! It all started with a phone call and the revelation that in a few weeks I would be in the same state as one of my arch enemies. The rage and anger was followed by my regression to the state of a twelve year old on the playground facing a bully. And ya’ll, IT WAS NOT PRETTY! I blasted the messenger, and dragged the bully’s name through the dirt using four-letter sentence enhancers.
Read MoreQuaint cabins with a view of Lake Gaston welcomed us, secluded from the chaos of our everyday lives. We enjoyed family style meals together in the dining hall (scones!!) and had the run of the property with lots of fun activities to choose from. As fantastic as all of these things were, there was one thing that stood out to me even more.
Read MoreToday I feel as though I am standing at the edge of the cliff, eyes squeezed shut with my hands clenched tightly by my side. It’s the next step on this wild ride of life.
There are so many unknowns…What if I hit the water too hard? Or don’t land right? Will I sink or swim? Better yet, how did I get here…
Read MoreOnce upon a time there was a young, naïve girl that was sure she was going to be the very first female MLB player. Then life threw her a few curve balls, she took some heavy hits, and got lost along the way.
Read MoreOf all the days to come up empty... Easter would not have been my first choice.
Read MoreI have a feeling that change is on the horizon, it's a stirring within that I cannot explain. I used to fight change tooth and nail, but now I know that I will come out on the other side with a fresh new perspective, a little wiser, with eyes wide open.
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